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Chapter 2 – 31st of July Today is Ben’s birthday, 31st of July, and it has been a year and a half since he passed away. His aunt, uncle, and some of his family has used this time of the year to gather together for a mid-year family gathering. Actually, they always had ever since Ben lost his parents. His relatives tried to make up for his loss by being together and celebrated his birthday as a whole. They were that sort of family. As for my relatives, though we wanted to gather as a whole, but everybody’s just scattered around the world! We do have gatherings. As many as we could manage, but that “many” would

Chapter 1 – The first date I woke up. Almost forgetting that today was the third day of the funeral. I laid on my bed wishing that sleep would once again take over my consciousness. Closing my eyes hoping to doze off again. So that I would not have to face this dreadful day…. …but I couldn’t. There was nothing. No more tears streamed down my face. No more sleepiness to take over me. No more emotions left. Nothing. I was numb all over. The only thing I could feel was the rhythmic beating of my heart, the ticking of clock, and the creaks of the springs in my bed. Finally, I decided to get up. Took a shower then head

------------------- September 1, 2014 Dear Diary, Today is the first day of September... And.. I don't even know what to write. Rather, I don't know where to start. My heart feels these feelings and I don't understand why they're there. I don't want them to be there but I can't help it. I'm scared to fall in love again. I'm scared to fall in love with the wrong guy again. I had my heart broken for three times already and I can't risk myself from getting hurt anymore. I feel like I won't have a love life anymore. I'm traumatized as fudge. But my heart desires to be loved. I know God is enough, but.... I'm still human. Vulnerable to feelings.